So I really wasn't going to write in this, but then my mom and uncle and I had a conversation about these journals. I had been telling Patrick how I saw that Shannah had one and she is such a good little writer and really expresses her thoughts well. I told them how I had a journal for a long time and there's probably about a good 300 or more entries if you combine this one with my old one. I never really wrote anything deep. Just thoughts about my day and basically a retelling of it. Pretty boring. My mom tried to say that people are not themselves, that they are just writing what people want to hear or in a way that they think will be entertaining to others... not really opening up like they would if it were a personal private journal. We both argued with her saying that it is possible to be completely open and honest in these. She said you can't because that would be opening yourself up to random strangers or close friends and people just don't do that. She said people's journals entries (online and open for people to read anyway) are not really a reflection of them. I was saying how mine definitely are, but then I think I realized what she meant when I began reading back on all my old ones. Yeah they are me and my words and about my day... but they aren't anything I wouldn't feel comfortable having a stranger read. So to really make these personal and put yourself out there you are supposed to be open and honest and give an inside look into yourself. Which... going back to what she was arguing, is just simply not what people do. If I were to really put myself out there and say how I really feel... I would probably either not post it for all to see, or end up backspacing over my raw feelings and retyping out a sugar coated version of how I really feel as to not offend friends or even complete strangers. What a shame. Maybe the famous bloggers out there really are open and honest and that's what causes so much controversy? I don't really feel I have a lot to say half the time, so maybe one day I can be that person that can put out there all my raw emotions and thoughts. Right now it's just boring shallow stuff like how my day was.